I would like to make sure I set aside an hour each morning in order to read, write a reflection, read the Bible and pray. I intend to aim to do this every day apart from Sundays.
I'm conscious that I've taken on this new role of Eden Team leader and this is going to need much prayer and more spiritual maturity than I currently have. There is also a disconnect between my aspirations to learn and understand faith better and the amount of effort that I've been putting into prayer and Bible study.
Last term was great in some ways and challenging in others. The biggest challenge was a surprise to me - it was to my self-confidence. The problem was that I became overly concerned about how I was being perceived by others, I was perhaps too concerned to make a good impression. I must learn to trust more in God and to 'stand behind my poverty' as one of my tutors (Lincoln Harvey) spoke about. That means allowing God to be my PR man - if any promotion was needed! Asking God to direct my life and make opportunities for me to be used in the service of his Kingdom. Being relaxed in the company of anybody, knowing that my future depends on God rather than my ability to impress anyone in particular.
I hope taking a regular quiet time in the mornings (and recording my thoughts on this blog) will help me to deal with stress and self-identity better.
